Life brings to us many trials and tribulations. “Darkness of the Soul” is truly an unbearable “suffering.” The soul feels totally abandoned by God. As St. Faustina said, “The more it feels like this, the more it clamours to get to God.” “God is all there is for the soul.” I have found for myself, what truly will bring God’s light back to me again. That is the “Anticipation of His Grace.”
One of my prayers in the morning is, “Lord, I do not know what this day is going to bring me, but my soul rejoices in the anticipation of Your grace to get me through it.”
When the Blessed Mother was told she was going to bring forth God Man, Jesus, she said “My soul does magnify You Oh Lord, and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior.” Though she did not quite understand it all, “as she had not known man,” she anticipated God’s grace to get her through it.
These are some of the “graces” that I “anticipate” during my day and “thank” Him for.” I will give eleven.
I anticipate and give thanks for:
The grace of “forgiveness.”
The grace of “conversion of my nature,” that I will be able to carry out His will.
The grace of “getting me through my problems, not just making them go away.”
The grace of being “able to pray.”
The grace of “receiving His Son in the Holy Eucharist.”
The grace of “His mercy and compassion.”
The grace of “repentance and confession.”
The grace of “His answers to my prayers.”
The grace of “Him choosing me,” as Jesus said, “I chose you.”
The grace of “His love.”
The grace of “Him opening another door for me, and allowing me to step through it, and seeing what is behind it.”
When we begin to “anticipate” and “contemplate” on the grace that is coming in the next hour in our lives, that moment of God’s light will come into the soul. For me, when it does this, it gets my mind off of “me” and gets it on “God.” Our souls will begin to “magnify Him,” and our spirits will “rejoice in Him.” Even if that light stays only for a fleeting moment, it is enough to get us through the entire day. I may not see the grace I am needing at the moment, but I know it is on it’s way!
God Bless, SR