Last night was a pretty good “toss and turn” night. I found myself putting in “I Love Lucy” CD’s to pass the time. Though it did lift my “spirits” I still could not go to sleep. I prayed, watched television, and read. I got nothing but sore hips and back. It was useless, I thought. My thoughts begin to go to our Blessed Mother and the night of the “Day of the Cross.”
I begin to think, “How did you handle that night, in the “silence and darkness?” “How did you lay there remembering every “single hurt and cry of your Son?” “How did you Dear Mother, ever find sleep again?”
All of a sudden, I realised in my “thoughts” and “soul” I had actually gone into her home. I was sitting there beside her on her bed, simply “talking with her.” Asking her questions regarding that Day. As the Blessed Mother has always done with me, she answered each of them so well. I then turned down the covers on the other side of the bed, and slid under them with her. I begin to converse with her about all the things going on with my parents, and other things in my life. The next thing I knew it was 9:00 this morning, and I cannot tell you the last time I slept until nine.
What started out as nothing but “tossing and turning,” turned out to be one of the most ”peaceful” nights I have had in a long time. How wonderful it was to lay there with her, and “feel so much love” How wonderful it was, to “feel so much warmth.” She helped me so much, and gave to me so many answers.
There is not one single thing which we go through, that she does not understand. She went through a “Day of Hell,” and I would imagine there were some nights in there also.
The next time things seem out of control in your life, she is there. She is there waiting for you. “Just turn down the covers and crawl in bed with her.” She will listen!
God Bless, SR
Ooooooooh SR what a beautiful post. My “go-to” action when I can’t sleep is to the Blessed Mother through the Rosary. I love how you imagined her pain and you were able to hang out with her and receive comforting rest. My devotion to Mary became more intense when I first did the Total Consecration of St Lois de Montfort, a practice I read Pope John Paul II did as well. Beautiful post. Thank you.
Hey Number 9,
All true, dear friend, all true! It was a wonderful night, and one I do not think I will forget. How she holds such a special place in my heart. I also did the “Total Consecration of St. Lois de Montfort,” last year for Lent. It is so strange when I converted she was a huge obstacle for me, and now I cannot live without her! Thank you so much for comment and God Bless, SR
This is beautiful, SR. I remember when I was a little girl, waking up afraid and climbing into bed with my own Momma, and the comfort I received just by being near her. I will remember this when I have insomnia, or a troubled heart. Thank you so much for sharing your heart!
Hey Lyn,
It was very comforting and in a way only a mother can give. Please do remember it, as the wonderful thing about our Blessed Mother is, we can tell her anything:>) I usually go to her Immaculate Heart, but for some reason last night, I just needed to be her child in her bed:>) I hope it helps you in your “tossing and turning nights” as well. Thank you for your comment and God Bless, SR
Hi SR,
yes, she’s always there to tuck us in if we let her; I hope you don’t mind that I post a quote from my school freind who is pretty much housebound due to her illness; (she sleeps really sporadically because of her painful condition). she had just been reading about Fr. Don Calloway:-
” you know me with my sleep disorder/common insomnia problem – well, something he said really struck home, so I think I’ll adopt his approach myself and make it not so much of a problem but a blessing to be awake in the quiet hours of the morning, when it can seem that everyone else is asleep:
”When you pray, and when you know that you only have one life to live, you realize that if you’re going to have sleepless nights, why not do it for God? And why not just go all out?”
Remembering his own conversion, Fr. Donald pointed out that there are many foolish things that a person will stay up late for. “With the passion that I once pursued the things of the world, now that’s going to be used for good: for God and for Our Lady.”
Glad you invited the Blessed Mother into your night as well as your day.
G.
Hey Geloruma,
Thanks for comment. What a wonderful “quote” and one very well worth remembering! Sometimes if we would only see every opportunity renders itself to us as a chance to serve our Lord, how much more peaceful and fulfilling our lives would truly be. Instead we tend to make them a “burden.” You are so correct here, I could have used the hours of the night to do so many other things instead of laying there “fretting” about my “lack of sleep.” We can sure get our “britches in a wad,” can’t we? I am happy for the way it turned out though. Again thanks so much for the wonderful comment. God Bless, SR
So true! Many times when I cannot sleep I pull out my rosary and begin to pray. And most every time I awake in the morning fully rested with my fingers still holding the rosary beads where I left off praying and my guardian angel finished for me
Hey Rose,
What a lovely thought, “your guardian angel finishing the Rosary” for you. Our Blessed Mother surely helped me to sleep the other night. We had such a wonderful talk. Thanks for comment and God Bless, SR